Four days to go till I turn 30

I've just sleepwalked my way through a midnight shop at Tesco. I'm now fully stocked up for my Saturday lunch. Doubt Aurora will join me. Does she not realise how hard it is for me? How the more she pushes me away now, the harder it will be to get back to the way things were? I nearly called her earlier, but I've decided to take a leaf out of George from Seinfeld's book - doing the opposite of my normal inclinations. So when I feel like calling Aurora, I do the opposite. If only I'd thought of that before I told her that I loved her. Good night.